Part 1 of our story of this week is posted under CompassionNet.
Friday morning was a full one, with a follow-up ultrasound and meeting with a few NICU team members. It’s been seven weeks since our last ultrasound, and this was our first opportunity to look at images after understanding the diagnosis, and to see if anything changed.
We met with a really nice OB doctor after the ultrasound who summarized Samuel’s current situation: he still has a neural tube defect (spina bifida), omphalocele (abdominal wall opening), a small heart defect, and other more minor issues. None of his symptoms have gotten better since the last scan, and the omphalocele got somewhat bigger as he’s grown, which may turn into a more significant issue as we near birth. He also is surrounded by somewhat more amniotic fluid than normal, which can cause issues if the quantity continues to grow throughout pregnancy.
In good news, Samuel’s size is roughly on track for his gestational age. Low birth weight isn’t good for Trisomy babies, and we’re happy he’s on pace for his age.
The ultrasound went a little long – we have a lot to talk about these days! – and we went right away to the hospital where we’ll deliver. We had a meeting set up with the NICU support team, which consisted of two medical doctors, a social worker, and one of our CompassionNet people we met on Tuesday.
The whole team was wonderful. They took time to ask what we understood of Samuel’s situation, answered all of our questions as best they could, and made every effort to paint a realistic picture of the different scenarios Samuel could encounter. They were honest and direct, but also supportive of anything we ultimately decide to do.
There were a few new and important items that came out of our NICU meeting. One was that Samuel’s omphalocele will likely prevent him from eating after his birth. Becuase his intestines likely protrude into it, they will probably be kinked in such a way as to make eating unsafe for him. This means he’ll be on IV fluids until the omphalocele is surgically resolved, if we choose to treat it.
We also learned about breathing support. Trisomy 18 children often have trouble breathing. If parents choose to not intervene, T18 babies will commonly reach a point where their brains “forget” to tell their lungs to breathe. This is called “apnea.” If apnea happens for long enough, the child will pass away.
We’ve known about this from our Trisomy research. The big question is: what, if anything, can we do about it? There are short-term options like bagging or introducing air through his nose. The long-term one is being on a ventilator. Because T18 kids can be pretty weak, it’s often difficult to wean them off a vent once they’re on one. It might mean Samuel would be on one for his whole life.
It’s possible, but rare, to send kids home on a ventilator. They make somewhat portable versions of ventilators, and they can train us on how to use one. The shocker came when they told us it would likely take a hospital stay of at least 2-3 months to fully train us to care for Samuel on a ventilator. It’s not trivial at all, and it would be a major undertaking to bring him home on one.
There’s also the difficulty of anesthesia during surgery. Samuel’s neural tube defect and omphalocele are both life-limiting conditions. If there’s any hope of him living more than a few weeks, both of these need to be addressed. He’d be under full anesthetic, and this is a challenging trial for any T18 newborn. They didn’t have stats for us, but there’s a chance he wouldn’t survive the surgery. In addition, he’d need to be on a ventilator during the surgery, and may have difficulty coming off the breathing support when he should.
In summary, Samuel has significant challenges stacked against him. Trisomy 18 on its own means an average life span measured in weeks. The additional complications of the neural tube defect, omphalocele, and hole in his heart further reduce his chances of living very long, and the interventions needed to correct these issues are risky all on their own.
At the end of our meeting, the social worker told us the same thing the CompassionNet people did on Tuesday, that she was impressed with how well we were handling all of this. She doesn’t see all our tears and inner turmoil, but I was thankful for her words.
Afterward, she took us on a tour of the maternity wing and NICU. We didn’t actually go into the labor and delivery floors, but talked about where everything happens and got a feel for the layout. There are some concerns that we’re due in January, which is the height of flu season. This could limit our visitors, including Daniel, which is a significant issue if our time with Samuel will be short. Please pray for a mild flu season this winter!
Our time in the NICU was the hardest for Joanna and me. The NICU is in the new Golisano Children’s Hospital, the same place Daniel was treated for his diabetes diagnosis just three months ago. Many of the emotions from that time hit me when we walked the halls and rode the same elevators as before. I appreciate that hospital a great deal, but I don’t want to go back there! I don’t want to grieve and process and wait and wonder all over again, this time in a situation much more serious than Daniel’s. They provide wonderful care at this hospital – I just really, really wish we didn’t need it.
Our visit to the hospital was helpful, but heavy. We left in the pouring rain, and we needed to get home to pick up Daniel in time for his nap. On the way out we stopped at Chipotle for lunch, because, hey, sometimes you need to treat yo’ self! It was a good decision – it felt nice to take care of ourselves with so much else going on right now.
Thank you for following along with our story. I’m sorry that it’s a difficult one to share in, but we’re so thankful for everyone who loves, prays for, and supports us in this time.